My backstory (in a nutshell)

Before diving right into my process of introducing feng shui elements into my everyday life, I thought it would be fitting to give a summary of where I am coming from... and why I believe I am in desperate need of as many good vibes as I can get my hands on!

Basically, I am 25 years old... pretty darn vivacious... and an anxious little mess. I am in a commited relationship with another girl named Rose. She's awesome. We are extremely happy together. Don't get me wrong, we've had our rough times - including faux "break-ups," screaming matches and all-around negative attitudes - but I am SURE this is where I want to be in my life and as much as it might make you want to revisit today's lunch, she completes me.

A major problem that we face is my family. They were re-Baptized in a modern Christian church after moving to the South over 5 years ago. Their discovery of religion has introduced a lot of issues in our relationship. For a very long time, my parents, sister and I have fought about my "lifestyle" almost constantly. Obviously, we don't see eye-to-eye. As I get older, I've realized that fighting them is not productive and I just need to be sure of who I am and live for what I know is right for me. I have very strong moral beliefs and am a spiritual being - but still on a very long journey to finding that part of me.

Another major hurdle is Rose's health. She is just a bundle of ailments! She has random fainting spells from low oxygen levels. She experiences severe migraines and back pain. She also suffers from stomach disorders - most of which we believe to be from an ulcer. And just recently, doctors discovered a tiny tumor inside of her eye that they feared was cancerous. After multiple tests and tons of stress, we found out that it is benign but must be re-evaluated every 2 months because it could easily become dangerous. And the kicker is - if it DOES turn to melanoma, she will have to get her entire eye removed. I plan to be her support through everything, as I have been for the past 7 years we've been together. But it's rough. Sometimes I want to give her a little bit of my healthiness just to get us by. She has been in and out of work and school. But luckily she is extremely driven and passionate... and we have amazing friends and her family as support.

Now my mission is to find all the good vibes in our lives that I can and bring them forward. I want to remove anything negative and balance our exterior so that our world can be in alignment. I thought the ideas of feng shui seemed perfect for this. I will be learning almost all of this as I go. Growing up, I considered myself a rather devout Catholic and didn't really know much else in the world. Now, I am making my own choices about my beliefs and discovering spirituality in all elements. I am very intrigued by more ancient practices and I can't wait to see what results!